What is at your core?

Welcome, I’m Steve Alexander,

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What is at your core? Are you looking for change in your life. Same patterns? Same old? feeling broken? and need fixing or just need someone to listen?

I have been exploring values a lot these last few weeks especially core values. I have been discovering, re-discovering my own. The intention is that I can lead a better life, but also to help others.

Many talk about wanting to live a better life, lead a better life have more control, direction.

Folk I talk to, share, they feel like, they have no purpose, no direction. There is a feel in their inner core of “lost”.

The search for answers.

I hear what people say and can resonate, but the true answers come not from me, but from within themselves.

My job, is to listen, and listen more. In that place of listening, I can hear more than just peoples words. I can hear heartbeat, life rhythm, soul talking, body talking and they tell me more than they are aware.

When we are still and quiet, we can hear ourselves. The problem so many of us have, is that our life is so chaotic and full of demands.

Many of us will put others first. Time to ourselves is a luxury. Many of us, want to switch off from life, escape ( however we do that)

Then we do the same again and again. “Same old…different day.”

Anchors and strong holds

It is through connecting and talking I can pick up on anchors that are weighing people down. I hear those core messages in their life which hold them back.

In life, we often hold on to these messages. Even though we think they are hidden, they can seriously affect our heart soul and mind like strong holds.

Some do not realise these messages lie like vultures eating away at us and feeding on rotten scraps.

Messages may come in the form of “feeling not good enough” “not worthy” “worth less” “unlovable” “stupid.”

A whole host of many more that you yourself could list.

What comes out of people, is due to these core deep roots. Some people hurt others because they are hurt, and others love because they know what it is to be hurt.

The good news is that you do not have to defined by these, nor do you have to carry these wounds and baggage. how good would it feel to be free of these?

Patterns of behavior

It can be so easy to repeat patterns in life because they are what we know, or the way we have always done them or we know no other way.

That does not mean to say that has to continue!

In school, or when we grew up, we had to learn things in a certain way. Some found this controlling in some ways giving little room for freedom of thought and expression.

As people get older, they get presented with options. Many do not get those options, and a certain way of life is forced upon them.

In society, many will continue a way of life just “because that is the way it is.”

It is possible that they do not have any reason to change and so they do not. I notice, that those who want to change often do not have the support around them and struggle.

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Do you struggle with change?

It is easy to moan that we want change to happen yet expect it to work like magic. Truthfully something needs to happen in order to make that change happen.

What is it that makes change so difficult? – perhaps it is not knowing what the future may be, perhaps it fear?

If there was a leak in the house or the car broke we would get them fixed.

When it comes to our own mental health and well being, many of us are reluctant to get help!

A lesson from X men

A quote I heard in an x men film was a conversation between professor xsavior and a young Jean Grey.

“You do not need fixing because you are not broken”

Sometimes it feels like we are , when the reality is, we are hurting.

If you need to talk about anything I have covered today in this post, please do get in touch. Let me know your thoughts, experiences, your story.

Thank you for reading.

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Steven Alexander.

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Befaffled

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Today instead of my normal blog I wrote a poem. A poem because to contain what I am feeling, I think I would explode or implode.

Not meant for anyone specifically and ironically this may offend and some may feel disrespected.

This poem is born out of the frustration of the world seeking so much, you lose yourself to a point where you despise yourself and others wonder why!

It is a reflection perhaps on the confusion that people feel about themselves of which, I am just as guilty.

The main difference is, I may not be unique in what I say, in the parts that others say but I will see beyond what you project because I see the hidden.

My poem. Some may relate to it.

“Which “me” do you want “me” to be!

Today I was asked not to be “me” because you said “me” being “me” disrespected you, (not true, this made me blue) yet you like other parts of “me”, so you ask me to modify “me”

“You are not alone in not liking a part of “me” for others also, do not like other parts of “me” – which I then try to modify so I am not “me” yet they also say, the part of “me” you do not like- they like, because it what makes me “me”

I have modified “me” so many times over the years I no longer know “me” and the “me” I do know now I don’t want to know because it’s not “me”

Which “me” do you want me to be, because you don’t want me to be that “me” but you still want me to be “me”

only it’s the “me” you want me to be when it suits you! “me” being “me” disrespected you, (not true, this made me blue) yet you like other parts of “me”, so you ask me to modify “me”

“You are not alone in not liking a part of “me” for others also do not like other parts of “me” which I then try to modify so i am not “me” yet they also say, the part of “me” you do not like- they like, because it what makes me “me”

I have modified “me” so many times over the years I no longer know “me” and the “me” I do know now I don’t want to know because it’s not “me”

Which “me” do you want me to be, because you don’t want me to be that “me” but you still want me to be “me”

only it’s the “me” you want me to be when it suits you

My personal reflection:

I reflect on this and discover I am guilty of this, perhaps I try and change others to how it suits me. I am changing this and I am constantly trying to change this.

How do we change without losing ourselves any further than we already have?

The irony is even the “found” (I have found) are not as “found” as they would like to believe or project on to others.

The befafflement of life.

Thanks for reading,

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Steven Alexander

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Sea of life

Isnt’ it amazing how we can be having a good day or maybe an ok day.. Or a surviving day, but it can take just the smallest thing to send us into crisis mode? The sea of life can be cruel sometimes right!

Today for me it was an a moment at work, something unplanned happened and I had no time to prepare, and the conversation that followed just sent the rest of the evening into a blur.. Crazy right, is it just me this happens to? But it honestly sent me into a spiral for a while after.

I received a few unpleasant ┬átext messages, which also had the same affect and both knocked me off balance. – Maybe “one of them days!”

Sometimes It feels like I am treading water just trying to keep my head above the waves yet when each incident such as this happens it feels like a huge tidal wave crashing.

I couldn’t help but think of one of my favorite actors known for many roles such as Mrs doubt fire, dead poets society, pop eye, good morning Vietnam, mork and mindy, jumanji, to name a few. This guy was known for his humor his smiles, zany ness, yet underneath he appeared quite the opposite. I wonder if Robin Williams ever felt misunderstood or that people were so reliant on him being so jovial he was never his true self around them?

Do you ever feel like you hide your true self from others?

There are days where I feel I have things “sorted” but it ends up being a cover for the truth.

Some days it’s a struggle, a battle to not give up and embrace the world, some days as much as I may want to… It’s like a huge mental/ physical wall that stops me.

My to do list gets ever longer, never seems to go down.

It’s amazing how we can fight one form of control yet still be controlled by another.!

As defeated as I would like to feel, and fighting is exhausting, I choose to continue to fight, for while we fight, it is a sign we are still alive!

KEEP FIGHTING!

Stay safe my friends. <><

P. S there was a photo of a chair in a previous blog. The waves were threatening to take it as it lay on the beach to rot.

I rescued it and polished it and gave it a home.