What is at your core?

Welcome, I’m Steve Alexander,

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What is at your core? Are you looking for change in your life. Same patterns? Same old? feeling broken? and need fixing or just need someone to listen?

I have been exploring values a lot these last few weeks especially core values. I have been discovering, re-discovering my own. The intention is that I can lead a better life, but also to help others.

Many talk about wanting to live a better life, lead a better life have more control, direction.

Folk I talk to, share, they feel like, they have no purpose, no direction. There is a feel in their inner core of “lost”.

The search for answers.

I hear what people say and can resonate, but the true answers come not from me, but from within themselves.

My job, is to listen, and listen more. In that place of listening, I can hear more than just peoples words. I can hear heartbeat, life rhythm, soul talking, body talking and they tell me more than they are aware.

When we are still and quiet, we can hear ourselves. The problem so many of us have, is that our life is so chaotic and full of demands.

Many of us will put others first. Time to ourselves is a luxury. Many of us, want to switch off from life, escape ( however we do that)

Then we do the same again and again. “Same old…different day.”

Anchors and strong holds

It is through connecting and talking I can pick up on anchors that are weighing people down. I hear those core messages in their life which hold them back.

In life, we often hold on to these messages. Even though we think they are hidden, they can seriously affect our heart soul and mind like strong holds.

Some do not realise these messages lie like vultures eating away at us and feeding on rotten scraps.

Messages may come in the form of “feeling not good enough” “not worthy” “worth less” “unlovable” “stupid.”

A whole host of many more that you yourself could list.

What comes out of people, is due to these core deep roots. Some people hurt others because they are hurt, and others love because they know what it is to be hurt.

The good news is that you do not have to defined by these, nor do you have to carry these wounds and baggage. how good would it feel to be free of these?

Patterns of behavior

It can be so easy to repeat patterns in life because they are what we know, or the way we have always done them or we know no other way.

That does not mean to say that has to continue!

In school, or when we grew up, we had to learn things in a certain way. Some found this controlling in some ways giving little room for freedom of thought and expression.

As people get older, they get presented with options. Many do not get those options, and a certain way of life is forced upon them.

In society, many will continue a way of life just “because that is the way it is.”

It is possible that they do not have any reason to change and so they do not. I notice, that those who want to change often do not have the support around them and struggle.

change

Do you struggle with change?

It is easy to moan that we want change to happen yet expect it to work like magic. Truthfully something needs to happen in order to make that change happen.

What is it that makes change so difficult? – perhaps it is not knowing what the future may be, perhaps it fear?

If there was a leak in the house or the car broke we would get them fixed.

When it comes to our own mental health and well being, many of us are reluctant to get help!

A lesson from X men

A quote I heard in an x men film was a conversation between professor xsavior and a young Jean Grey.

“You do not need fixing because you are not broken”

Sometimes it feels like we are , when the reality is, we are hurting.

If you need to talk about anything I have covered today in this post, please do get in touch. Let me know your thoughts, experiences, your story.

Thank you for reading.

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Steven Alexander.

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10 ways to deal with your fears

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Taking time out is Time well spent

Welcome.

“Every next level of your life will demand a new you, and sometimes it takes being broken in order to become that new version of yourself” Arman Tarun Sharma

I would hate to think that in order to become a newer me, or a more “whole me” I have to be broken each time, but perhaps in a way this stands true – perhaps there are elements that need “fixing” in order to become this “new version.”

Not everybody like this idea of being broken, and some would argue we are not broken, but instead this is just a state of mind, that happens to feel very real to many.

Perhaps instead of the word “broken” maybe a sense of re-adjustment is necessary, or re-alignment.

Do you have problems sleeping due to stress or anxiety?

One night I could  not sleep as much as I tried, and it was getting later and later until it was around 3am and then “it happened” – The chat.

The 3 am Chat

So I ask myself why I cannot sleep and the answer comes back “fears!”

I am thinking it’s 3 am, why would I want to chat about fears for ?

Bear in mind that quote about broken and fixing, so here are the things I had to deal with at 3 am it appeared.

  1. I was having trouble breathing as my room is stuffy, I knew I needed to open the window yet I was fearful if I open it someone would try and get in. – I needed to open that window.
  2. I have been putting off writing, writing on blogs, writing a book fearful that actually no one would be interested. Fearful I will not be as good as others out there or I  do not have what it takes – I need to worry less about what others think, stop comparing myself to others, value what I have to say as it may help someone.
  3. Coaching –  it is something that others affirm yet again I fear, who am I that I should do this, would this pay the bills? earlier that evening I was talking to some one in a forum, The forum she had gone to seeking help was full of well wishers but none that even came close to the support she wanted or needed reminding me of “The Good Samaritan story”  where some came along either ignored the plea for help or offered well wishes rather than actual help. – 30 minutes later we discovered the root cause of her emotions and I was able to support and help.
  4. Work emails (My non coaching job) – I have been avoiding these. I know I should open them, but I feel it is yet another work thing to be weighed down.. on what is already a demanding job, I decide to open up the email and despite my worse fears there was nothing too demanding – It was o.k, I was going to be o.k.

Having dealt with these, I was finally able to sleep. 

So what did I learn?

I learned a few things. I learned:

i)       Fear is only as controlling as I let it.

ii)      Fears serve a purpose, in the sense they speak of something that is not quite right whether that fear is rational or irrational it is telling us something and sometimes we may have to deal with it before it prevents us from doing something, if it does not do so already.

iii)   As a coach, counsellor  I cannot expect others to deal with their fears if a) I do not deal with my own or b) I cannot offer tools to deal with fears.

Further research

I find this whole topic interesting, so if you would like to read more, I have included a few posts I found a good read. click on the links below.

Dr. F. Emelia Sam  3 Reasons Why Fear Is Actually a Good Thing

NHS -Ten ways to fight your fears

If you struggle with fears and would like to chat or get help, let me know, I would love to hear from you and what your thoughts and experiences are around this topic. Maybe you have good tools or tips you could share! Click here to Get in touch.

Thank you for reading.

Steven Alexander.

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toxic
/ˈtɒksɪk/
adjective
  1. 1.
    poisonous.
    “the dumping of toxic waste”
    synonyms: poisonousvenomousvirulentnoxiousdangerousdestructiveharmfulunsafemalignantinjuriouspestilentialperniciousenvironmentally unfriendly;

Today’s topic is about the toxic “stuff” in our lives. Do you have anything toxic you want or need to get rid of.

Toxic

What does that word mean to you, if anything?

This is a subject I wanted to talk about a while back, but was something I was struggling with myself.

Reading a few other peoples blogs however, this word keeps cropping up time and time again.

As a fan of quotes, I wanted to insert, a phrase I seem to be hearing a lot:

“The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, expecting different results” – I am not sure if I agree with this!

I think there are occasions in life where if you are persistent or persevere long enough, you can get a different result – not everyone will agree.

I have been thinking a lot about life recently, and I would love to get rid of the toxic things in my life. By toxic, I mean the things that either make my life hard or that I would be better without i.e not good for me, unhealthy, distractions, harmful etc.

In order to do this, I had to write a list of the so called “toxic” things in my life.

So these were a mixture of:

Thoughts….some times I can hold on to negative things that have been said to me or about me..this makes me sad, doubt myself and feel like, (fill in your own word) I no longer want to let those things or people have power over me.

Words…sometimes I can be filled with hate, or contempt for another. My own bitterness can cause toxicity. I do not want to be like that even if I do it in self preservation or protection, it’s not who I am. My words can be cruel and can hurt because I am hurting.

A phrase I heard recently rings true for me “hurt people – hurt people”

People.. Sometimes we need to realise who the toxic people are in our lives and how best to deal with them in a way that we are not victims or that they have authority over us.

Sometimes people may not realise the affect they have on us, even when well intention-ed, and often these can be those closest to us. In their well intentions, they can still hurt thinking they know what’s best for us.

The most damaging phrase I had say to me was.. “I am saying this in love”

The word “love” itself has become toxic to me, and means things I would rather not go into. Some of you out there may be able to relate to what I’m saying.

Actions… This section is harder to write for me as it means being honest and vulnerable, but self harm is a huge thing for me. Most people may think self harm is cutting, but there is so much more to this.

Food for me is my thing, as I feel it’ s possibly the one thing I can control, so it means if I am in a bad place I will either over indulge or not eat.

Neglect of myself is another area I can often suffer from..

While depression can be a part of me I live with, I have to fight hard for it not to control me. This is a hard battle!

Some of my mindset has come from the damaging words and actions which have sunk in deep or play on repeat in my head.

Today I choose not to let ghosts of people past have that authority over me.

In essence toxic can be anything in our life which is not good for us.

I am not saying it is easy to change and sometimes we need very drastic things to happen to get us to that point.

Don’t be afraid to get help.

Maybe if you are fed up and seeking a change, perhaps now is the time!

Let’s do this toxic journey together.

Let’s make today be the start of a new life, new start, no more toxic!

Life can be sweeter! Sweet things can “grow on trees” and yes I have tasted from this tree of life, and it was good!

Peace be with you.

A tree containing lots of sweets
Money does not grow on trees but sweets do

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Come visit again soon,

Steven Alexander

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