Isnt’ it amazing how we can be having a good day or maybe an ok day.. Or a surviving day, but it can take just the smallest thing to send us into crisis mode? The sea of life can be cruel sometimes right!
Today for me it was an a moment at work, something unplanned happened and I had no time to prepare, and the conversation that followed just sent the rest of the evening into a blur.. Crazy right, is it just me this happens to? But it honestly sent me into a spiral for a while after.
I received a few unpleasant text messages, which also had the same affect and both knocked me off balance. – Maybe “one of them days!”
Sometimes It feels like I am treading water just trying to keep my head above the waves yet when each incident such as this happens it feels like a huge tidal wave crashing.
I couldn’t help but think of one of my favorite actors known for many roles such as Mrs doubt fire, dead poets society, pop eye, good morning Vietnam, mork and mindy, jumanji, to name a few. This guy was known for his humor his smiles, zany ness, yet underneath he appeared quite the opposite. I wonder if Robin Williams ever felt misunderstood or that people were so reliant on him being so jovial he was never his true self around them?
Do you ever feel like you hide your true self from others?
There are days where I feel I have things “sorted” but it ends up being a cover for the truth.
Some days it’s a struggle, a battle to not give up and embrace the world, some days as much as I may want to… It’s like a huge mental/ physical wall that stops me.
My to do list gets ever longer, never seems to go down.
It’s amazing how we can fight one form of control yet still be controlled by another.!
As defeated as I would like to feel, and fighting is exhausting, I choose to continue to fight, for while we fight, it is a sign we are still alive!
Stay safe my friends. <><
P. S there was a photo of a chair in a previous blog. The waves were threatening to take it as it lay on the beach to rot.
I rescued it and polished it and gave it a home.